dirty mind

When your mind goes crazy
It can’t get fixed up
And I’m feeling too lazy
To sort what’s mixed up
Lay back, enjoy one ride
On rollercoaster of emotions
The best scenery’s supplied:
A walking poetry in motion

Didn’t they warn ya – I have a dirty mind
Cause we’ve only just met
And we’ve already spent
A hundred night’s time in my dirty mind

When you lose your mind
It ain’t kept at lost and found
Just erase and rewind
Recompose the background
Characters reenter scene
And there I go again
Blushed and high on caffeine
I sip more coke and then…

Didn’t they warn ya – I have a dirty mind
Cause we’ve only just met
And we’ve already spent
A hundred's nights' time in my dirty mind

departure of the first children

A bloodred moon is hanging low;
A swan cries out her deathlike woe;
Unicorns gone, the elves gone too;
Hope fading that they’ll come anew.

As one by one the guardians left
All the world now agonizes bereft,
Empty of beauty, void of charm,
An easy prey for sorrow and harm.

The wind whispers prayers in its breeze
Hummed by the silver berch trees
For the First Children to return
And rekindle the stars to once again burn.

unwelcome

You are unwelcome.
So's the misery you bring.
If I only know one thing
- I want you gone.

When darkness fell,
Where were you then?
Go there again.
Well, what the hell,

Doesn't even matter,
It set the course.
If it ain't for the worse
It's for the better.

The puzzle falls apart,
We fell out of place.
Grow up to face
We both played a part.

Never mind now,
Friendships ended
Can't be mended.
Just take a bow.

You are unwelcome,
So's the misery you bring.
If I only know one thing
- I want you gone.

the lament of lupin

It's strange how some legacy aches
And how long lasts a childhood bane.
A full moon night is all it takes
To release a howl that's full of pain
- The heavy price for another's sin -
The nightly lament of Lupin.

Some bites run deeper than others,
Some wounds take forever to heal
And it's strange how nobody bothers
How the man within the wolf might feel.
But most eyes never see past skin
- Such is the lament of Lupin.

night moth

A night moth's flying around
Closer to the lamp - wings singed,
Then it falls lightly to the ground
Wings burnt, tiny legs cringed.

Will the lamp let out a lament?
Or will it just keep on shining
Upon wings singed without intent
While pretending it was silver lining?

So tell me, moth, how does it feel
When it's your longing you wrestle
And it kills when it's meant to heal
And the world looks on at your hassle.

angels and saints

Can't keep your loved ones glued to one spot
They walk out golden cages you built.
When you think them holy and find that they're not
You'll be left crying over milk spilled.

Angels ain't humans, people ain't saints,
Pedestals are for statues alone.
For people up there it means constraints
They walk away or turn to stone.

Angels and saints
Don't make mistakes.
Angels and saints
Have nothing at stake.
Angels and saints
Don't argue and fuss.
But angels and saints,
Baby, ain't us.

painless through the day

To me I am the greatest danger.
I scare myself to death each day
When facing myself as a stranger
But I can't scare myself away.

I used to fear, I used to pray,
I used to long and searching stray.
Now I just hope I'll make it
Painless through the day.

I choose numbness over pain
And anxiety is shrinking;
Hooked on anaesthesia for the brain
And an antidote to thinking.

I consumed myself to dissolution.
Now 'Check please!', I want to leave,
Leave me behind in this confusion
And go somewhere I can believe,

Where I can hope, where Ii can pray,
Where I can search and find my way
And be assured I'll make it
Painless through the day.

liberation (I&II)

Isolation
Is severing all ties.
Frustration
Comes when love dies.
Emancipation
Always comes at a price.
Liberation
Is opening your eyes.

Realisation
Is seeing truth behind lies.
Desolation
Comes with goodbyes.
Emancipation
Always comes at a price.
Liberation
Is opening your eyes.

unimportant

She looks at him through the window
But she ain't one to stalk.
She says she just goes with the flow
But then she won't talk.

She loves r'n'b and its beat.
When others roll their eyes
She grooves and shuffles her feet
Like no one can criticise.

She's completely ignorant
Of charms she got
And she feels unimportant
But she's not.

She won't wear clothes of green and blue,
They don't match in her eye.
Someone tell god he erred on a hue
When he painted grass and sky.

She makes up many funny words
That come as a surprise
But they just reflect the world
Mirrored in green eyes.

She's completely ignorant
Of charms she got
And she feels unimportant
But she's not.

shackled

As you walked unholy grounds
I was the dust clung to your sole
And when you ran out of bounds
I stayed to guard your retreat hole

And you thought i'll always be there
Like i'm shackled.
I'd rather be elsewhere, anywhere
Than shackled.

Let me make the introduction,
Lately you seem to forget.
You love not me but a fraction,
The one jammed in your preset.
You're crying now to no avail.
Call it destiny, fate, kismet;
Fugitive from emotional blackmail,
I run as far as I can get.

You wanted me to always be there,
Had me shackled.
I wanted to be elsewhere, anywhere
No more shackled.

river runs dry

I too want to feel comfortably numb.
In lack of that I'll just play dumb
And hoping I'll get there someday
I ignore the pain till it goes away.

You've passed the point of no return,
Light a match and bridges will brun.
Spread the ashes, level the terrain
But the holes will still remain.

The fire's etched forever in my eyes,
The scars in my heart likewise.
By the river's shore I sit down and cry
And wait until the river runs dry.

devil's wayward child

The renown I've earned in this world
Comes from being passive aggressive
And turning my soft shoulder cold.
The devastation was impressive.

Believing in god is a matter of choice
But the devil's presence can't be denied:
With charming smile, alluring voice
On your trip to hell right by your side.

You tried your best talks and moves,
I did my defiance and mocking.
I earned a brand new pair of hooves
'Cause my feet are sore from walking.

Tell the devil I'm on my way
To display the horns I've grown.
Roll the red carpet out today:
His wayward child is marching home.

bitter (toast)

How dare you ask me why I’m bitter?
And damn that grin glued to your face!
Yeah, I’m an under the beltline hitter –
A new religion I fervently embrace.

Pain gives me the right to be bitter
And damn, I am what you dreaded most –
A cynic fist-clencher, teeth-gritter
And drunk on bitterness I raise a toast:

Here’s to the disillusioned,
Here’s to the vain hopes they nurtured,
Here’s to ashes of dreams envisioned,
Here’s to nights writhing in bed tortured.

Harboured in bitterness it's pain I shunned
But damn, that can't be a very hard guess.
Wide awake, wide aware, wide-eyed stunned
I drink to the bitter ones, raise one more glass.

Here’s to enjoying being played for a fool,
Here’s to getting high on revenge,
Here’s to anger and playing it cool,
Here’s to teeth gritted, fists clenched.

not enough

You told us your story
Impressing, but useless, love.
And you said you were sorry
But that's not enough.

I want more,
I want you on your knees.
I want you bent
As a lesson learnt token.
I waged war
Now I wanna see you bleed.
I want it to end
But it won't till you're broken.

You told us your story
Guess it must've been tough.
And you said you were sorry
But that's not enough.

I want more
Than what you faked of remorse.
I want you bent
Under the weight of your fear.
I waged war
And it brought out my worse.
I want it to end
But it won't with you still here.

in a little while

If you can't bear to see me frown,
Don't worry, I'll put on a smile
And pretend I'm not down
And I'll be okay in a little while.

If you hate to see me breaking
I'll feign building me up tile by tile.
Right now it's only faking
But I'll be okay in a little while.

If you feel arguing isn't worth
I'll just swallow down the bile.
I'm not down, just down-to-earth
But I'll be okay in a little while.

If you request a change of attitude
I know it's only gnawing a file.
Won't do, but I'll try to delude
That I'll be okay in a little while.

only love counts

We were as big a wonder
As the pyramids along the Nile.
Now we're torn asunder.
It only lasted for a little while.

The rift that's grown between us -
Look to what it amounts.
Unnamed crimes erased what was
Though you say that only love counts.

It's true, only love counts indeed.
It counts all the withered dreams
And the ones already crushed in seed
And kisses that aren't what it seems.

And only love counts the tears
When the freed one rejoices.
Love counts fake smiles turned sneers
And pain brought about by free choices.

And love is but a frightened child
Though you claim that only love counts.
It does: broken hearts stacked in a pile,
Disillusions, angers and frowns.

... and other things that only love counts.

inside

And you know thoughts can kill,
Stab as sharp as any knife;
Yes, you knew it and still
You drained our bond of life.

I can't much longer survive
All the pain I tried to hide.
It started eating me alive,
I have to tear it from my inside.

Not even anger is mine to own:
I need to spit it out in ink,
So now everyone is shown
How I feel and what I think.

For a moment - heart on my sleeve.
You may book a sightseeing ride
Before I get up and leave
And tear you from my inside.

could i just...?

Could I just turn off your volume
When you shout in my ear;
Could I just not hear,
Maybe press 'pause' and then never resume?

Could I be sitting home instead
Watching wildlife scenes
On a dusty TV screen
While lying down relaxed in my bed?

Could I not get caught up in things spoken
As truths turn to lies;
Could I just close my eyes
And ignore all promises that were broken?

Could I just enjoy life for a moment,
A pizza and a coke
Without hustle you provoke
With your each and every comment?

wrong step

No wrong step
You took ever cost you so dearly -
Off the map.

All i get
Hanging around is hurt merely -
No regret.

I am gone
Heart- and mindbroken nearly -
I moved on

Real life struck,
Hits harder the more you fear it -
Real tough luck.

This wrong step
You took cost you ever so dearly
...off the map.

overdose

By now I should know better
And ignore the mess you cause;
It really doesn’t matter
Once it’s passed the overdose.

Nothing much happened,
You acted like always.
We’re stuck in a dead end
Just like in old days.

Never should’ve thought of
Repeating mistakes.
The thing you called love
- Watch as it breaks.

The shards at your feet
Cut you walking away.
By now it’s only bittersweet
The taste of things you say.

By now I should know better
And ignore the mess you cause;
It really doesn’t matter
Once it’s passed the overdose.