painless through the day

To me I am the greatest danger.
I scare myself to death each day
When facing myself as a stranger
But I can't scare myself away.

I used to fear, I used to pray,
I used to long and searching stray.
Now I just hope I'll make it
Painless through the day.

I choose numbness over pain
And anxiety is shrinking;
Hooked on anaesthesia for the brain
And an antidote to thinking.

I consumed myself to dissolution.
Now 'Check please!', I want to leave,
Leave me behind in this confusion
And go somewhere I can believe,

Where I can hope, where Ii can pray,
Where I can search and find my way
And be assured I'll make it
Painless through the day.