scrambled

We're all caught in our hamster wheel,
But did you build it for yourself
Like I built mine with so much zeal,
Full of sweat, with my bare hands?

Higher and higher grow the fences
I raise in a circle around me
And unbreachable the defenses
Of coldness that surround me.

Never knew I'd get so tangled
That I'd fall myself in traps I laid
And my feelings got so scrambled
That I forgot the love we made.

My second nature takes over the first
And more and more the two divide:
A cynic lead role well rehearsed
While a Sméagol suffocates inside.

Reality is slowly fading away,
The dream we had became it's grave
And losing grip I fade to gray;
You're gone and I'm too late to save.